...before we have to go back to it!
A few days ago, I posted about the Blessed Relief we'd been experiencing since Matthew got on some reflux medicine.
But, sadly, it seems like we are back to the drawing board. As his "sleeping" "schedule" at night runs from about 7:30pm-10pm (yes, that's 2.5 hours) and from 10pm-7am, there's not much sleep going on. And once 7am hits, Michael is up and ready to go.
We are exhausted.
Michael and I are taking turns holding him at night so the other gets some shred of sleep, but that only takes a slight edge off a very raw, raw reality of two weeks of insane degrees of sleeplessness.
On the other end of it, we are trying not to hold him too much so we don't train him to reject his bed outright, so it's usually once 4 in the morning hits that we both give in and value the good of the now over the future bad habits we are forming. But after working and working to get him to stay asleep for hours, trying to heroically perservere for some greater goal in the future loses all value. All value.
So, we have more medicine, and the doctor is recommending putting him to bed in his car seat so he can be more upright. It's nice to have something "new" to try, but at this point, we feel a little deflated and I don't want to get my expectations up too high.
I'm trying to "offer it up" for various intentions, but I usually end updoing it retroactively or intending to offer up the upcoming night before it hits, because once we're there experiencing EVERY HOUR OF THE NIGHT, I usually can't muster enough goodness or positive thinking to do it then.
Anyways, don't mean to complain, but it's my blog and I'll vent if I want to!
As a little bonus though, this morning when I fed Matthew he looked at me and gave me the biggest smile in the whole world....and I don't think that was gas. It took the edge off a little, so there are little rewards that keep us going.
5 comments:
Oh, no! That really, really stinks to get your hopes up on a few nights of good sleep, and then have everything fall apart again.
Maybe if reflux is the culprit again, some tweaking of medicines and positions will do the trick like Dr. D suggests. It seems like you were on the right track, at least.
I'm sending lots of prayers and offerings-up your way, Wheetah. Hang in there!
NO!
These babies and their sleeping...
I also am praying that things get better.
Keep up the good work Kim!
We pray that soon this period will be just a memory.
The car seat sounds like it could work. When I shared the latest update with Dad, he suggested having the head of Matthew's bed higher than the foot. With adults with reflux, they do recommend raising the head of the bed to sleep more comfortably.
So we continue to pray that this is an opportunity for a better nights sleep.
We pray for sweet dreams for all of you.
I've been trying to come up with some words of wisdom...but I can't think of any!!!
The following comment, "Anyways, don't mean to complain, but it's my blog and I'll vent if I want to!" did make me laugh. I mean, it really made me laugh like I hadn't laughed in a while. You are such an awesome writer and I love reading your reflections including yor venting!!!! :)
Please give your beautiful babies a big hug and kiss for me.
I'm praying for you guys. Keep up the good work. :-)
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